What I have learned from being homeless.

This is a blog created to help me get away from homelessness. I am trying to raise funds. If you can help there is paypal link in the right nav bar.
Days now, without running water, 37.
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What I have learned from being homeless.

I know that I have been on this journey for a reason. I know there was something I needed to learn, and I hope I have learned it. I have learned that kindness it the most important and valuable thing in the world, and it doesn’t cost a thing. Kindness has become my religion.

I have learned it is not what happens to you that matters, as much as how you react to it.  Caring for my paralyzed mother didn’t cause my depression. My reaction to caring for my paralyzed mother caused my depression.

I have learned the difference between need and want, and that I need very few possessions, really, to get by. Unlike my previous life, and most “regular” people, I use 100% of my few things 100% of the time. I don’t HAVE things I don’t use.

I have learned that things that look scary are not always so. The same goes for things that look nice.

I have learned, you don’t TRULY need anything you can’t carry, and you will risk much to protect those things.

I have learned to keep moving forward because you really can’t go home again.

I have also learned that the people that will hurt you the most, never meant to hurt you at all, and those people are totally clueless that they have just dealt you a devastating emotional blow. Those people, think they know everything, and they don’t know anything.

When you finally understand that you don’t know, what you don’t know, only then can you be truly understanding and compassionate.

I have learned that if you don’t have TV, which I don’t, and your don’t have internet access, someone has to tell you about the Boston Marathon bombing. Subsequently I learned that I don’t miss the 24 hour news cycle.

I have learned that you cannot gauge nor judge my emotional pain or the depth of my depression any more than I can judge yours, and one’s compassion and empathy towards everyone should reflect that. You can’t accurately describe to me what it is like to give birth any more than I can accurately convey to you the gut-wrenching sadness of feeling disposable. The feeling that, if no one truly cares that I AM here, does it really matter if I stay here, and will it even have mattered that I WAS here.

I believe I am valuable and worth saving. But no man is an island and I have learned that I cannot get out of this alone.  I hope you can help, just a bit. Could you please?

Thanks and blessings – Kathleen

10 people with $25 walk into a bar . . .

I am trying to raise money and I am failing spectacularly. If I cant raise at least 52.30 by tomorrow, I can’t even continue this blog.  I won’t be able to get online, and I will be isolated.

The town I live in now, I am not from here. I don’t know many people. And I have no family now that my mom is gone.

I have no TV. No radio, no clock, other than my phone and computer. I am so grateful to have my computer.  It is 5 years old and I am grateful for every day that it ‘hangs in there‘.

I don’t get out much. I have one neighbor that takes me to the grocery store when he can, otherwise I am here. Alone, except for the dogs.  — Bless the dogs, they don’t even care that we are broke or have no running water. They just want to be wherever I am. ♥ ♥ Love ♥ ♥

I don’t get out much, yet I can connect with strangers on the other side of the world through the internet.

I know I am here, in this place of destitution for a reason. I just don’t yet know what that reason is, or in fact, how to get to the point of change all alone, but I continue to search with hope.

I could really, really use some assistance.

If you can help a stranger, there are contribute links in the right nav bar.

Blessings, and thanks for listening 😀

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Mystery Man saves ‘Lifeless’ Baby from Drowning

This was a GOOD day 😀 (reblogged post)

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A mother wants to thank the unknown passer-by who saved her four-month-old girl from drowning.

Imogen was submerged in water for several minutes when her mother’s car overturned and plunged into a ditch in Gosberton, Lincolnshire.

Imogen was “blue and lifeless” when her mother Beckie Thompson pulled her out of the car.

But a man fought through his own tears as he resuscitated Imogen, who eventually started breathing again.

Miss Thompson, 21, said she was “hysterical” after pulling Imogen out of the car and passing her to a woman who had stopped to help.

“She laid her on the riverbank, and a lad, luckily, just laid her out and started doing CPR,” said Miss Thompson.

“He was crying, he was very upset. To be honest I don’t think anybody expected her to wake up.”

Despite this, she said the man continued to try for “a good two or three minutes”.

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10 people, times $25, equals ‘can you help‘?

I started a crowd funding campaign to see if I could get help online to prevent me and my dogs from becoming homeless . . . again.  Right now I am hovering on the edge of it.

I have come far, but truly need help to go further.

I know if I could get 100 people to contribute $25 it would make a significant change in my life.  In return I want to send each person a small gift with a number on it in the order that the contributions are received, hence the “count”.  So far, I not been able to entice even one person to help me 😦

My story is not GRIPPING enough. To know more about me read the campaign text. I didn’t save a baby from a burning building, or return a found bag of money (though I would!). I am just a nice person who really needs help. Nothing extraordinary about me.

I currently have a ‘roof’. I stay in a vacant apartment, in disrepair, that is up for short sale, but I still have to pay utilities. My power bill is due in 4 days and is $119. My water has already been turned off because I couldn’t pay it, its been off since September 5th. To have it turned back on will cost $131 and I truly need a shower :D.

My hope is to find 10 people who could contribute right now, so that I can cover those two things.

If you can help there is a link in the right nav bar to the campaign, AND another link to a make a contribution directly using paypal. (Use any debit or credit card, safely. Only paypal sees your info.)

Blessings . . . and thanks for listening.

Does anyone else but me think this blog title simply BEGS for a little cartoon vampire mascot?

You know, Count Kindness.

A little cartoon vampire.

Fangs and a black cape.

Maybe with a Romanian accent?

I don’t want one, but it’s seems obligatory.

Just thought I would ask around.